Having high fever,having a tummy that hurts and hurts does not stop,unable to keep water down puking every which where you turn,up all night.next day doing all over again plus with pms....nice outside unable to go out just stay in jammies.I had some bottled water and little soda,puked like a water fall.good thing tv comes in handy when you need to rest but you fall asleep anyway.the pets come in great comfort I love my dogs,I even had puke in my hair.it was an aweful experience,was it the lasagna I had or was it a bug it is a mystery.I am not gonna eat lasagna for a very long time the thought or seeing it does not give me an appetite whatsoever.....

Today I had star bucks coffee,and a blueberry muffin,helped mom get stuff out of car,sorted through more things of mine,the temperature has dropped,it's nice to talk to people on phone they give you advice time to time.I hope to have more patience I've had some meltdowns.I see god to look out for me when I need it,I've learned to drink more water because dr says I need it for my health.I like a quiet place In my room to vent and go on my iPad.for new yrs resolution have not decided yet.I often think what the next ten yrs the outcome has in store for me.I go to womans group on Tuesday's it helps me to vent but sometimes the things we talk about it's hard,airplane is flying nice to hear.I pray for my mom so she can deal with dad being gone,,,,love is like a box of chocolates it will melt you away,we Recently have a ninja maker boy does it do many different things,if I learn to run it that will be awesome.my kuiregg coffee maker saves on time .the first one we took back was missing parts.cold case is on.what to make for dinner undecided,painted my nails today conditioned treated hair.my mind has thoughts and plans it's hard to start a project,oh well I will make the best of it,just recently grew out of my Harley davidson jacket it was difficult to replace it,,,,some times we grow out of something that we enjoy ,my dogs give me spirit to dress them up.my Xmas was nice to have a home cooked meal and it turned out wonderful and tasty,dove dark chocolate will melt you away.buying for the needy melted my heart as we'll all donations I've made,,,,me and my moms project worked well and will be remembered. 2011 all gone 2012.looking at picture albums of seeing all the pic is pretty special.went to see grandma and grandpa at nursing home .....as we are older it is not easy,well enough for now till I decide to write again,god bless my family with angels and happiness and every one else that loves us peace.

Losing a father

Oct 20,2010 was very hard on me that morning,I was in north Dakota that morning and it was absolutely unreal when I received the phone call fro mom.I never thought that day would come because doctors always said he will get better,his body is tired after all the hard work he has accoplished in his lifetime,it now is coming near to the 20th,I am hurt inside sometimes I feel I should of shared more time together when I was young he was very bust working on something,as you grow older it is hard to find time,he will alwAys be the one and only father I will ever had,I hope and pray he is in a comfortable place now,I miss him even though there were many turbulent times,,,he had a very unique life and for reasons and closure I hope it helps him as it does me,I know some of my health issues are heredity from my father,,,if he sees other loved ones that our family for him to give them comfort,,,lay in peace dad and find closure and peace at last,give me peace when I desire it,,,,you lived a good life".........

Trip to bayfield

Sure was a nice day,had samples of wine. As well as apple donuts,had a bacon ranch salad for lunch,wind picked up in afternoon,lots and lots of walking,many different exhibits to see,picked apples at orchard,it was nice to get away,didnt have to go far was fun though,I've never been there before,had some lemonade to drink,shared some thoughts with friends,I may go sometime again,I enjoyed apple festival,,,,,

Busy week

I never thought moving is so exhausting,the more boxes I get I never new as an adult we accumulate so many things.....I must like the beauty in the items,I've donated so much and so much time I am exhausted,,,I need to find more easier ways to cope it is harder than I thought even though I feel the home I live in has nakedness as so different,,,I pray that I can help myself,,,I enjoy
Cleaning sometimes its hard but sure looks nice,,,,I need a robot it would make it easier....enough for now

things can be precious like dolls until you clunk your head

coming back from a getaway expecting nice weather on the way home what do I do get rained on.went to restraunt ordered sour ncream chive frieswhat do I get regular crispy fries It was not a big deal.I spent many hours with friendscame back and seen a friend I graduated with.ate by a lake had rich flavored food.my burger was raw it tasted like steak,I was embarrassed that it was not cooked enough they gav e me an extra salad.I had a margarita that was cooling.......life can be good ...l.then boom.....it back fires.....time goes by in a flash I cannot believe it.....the experiences the tears wept....I miss my father hes in heaven I take each breath as it places a spot down in my heart.....life can be precious in many ways by water feelings nature voice I never plan something because my life is dramatic time to time.agates flowers ......of course money politics are a big thing in life......we lose our guys in war it affects us just as well as there families grieve....anyway going online is a good thing to relax....

My love for my dogs

My dogs are very precious to me as they make my day brighter each and every day.they help me through my feelings.they enjoy there I am biscuits and rawhides.I feel there protection as it is my safety